So like.... I don't need my preferred substance to get through the day. I think all the days I go without it kind of prove that.
But sometimes I just am done dealing with the week and want to spend my remaining free time smoking a bowl and listening to Sci fi and fantasy lore videos so I can pretend I'm chilling somewhere near the Anduin or on the holodeck.
Damn, if holodecks became real, humanity is basically over.
Yep. Same here. Except weed gives me panic attacks. But I just had (am having) the worst Monday ever and I am the boss at my job and since I'm having the worst Monday ever I said fuck it, put my phone on do not disturb and started day drinking... Basically told my service manager it's all in your hands today and he knew exactly what I meant. Now I'm floating around in my pool with a beer in hand and saying fuck it. I'll regret it tomorrow, but that's a future me problem, not mine. I wish tomorrow me good luck.
It helps but it still makes me panic. I was an everyday smoker for years and then after one really bad mushroom trip (out of a hundred) I can't handle it anymore at all. It's like something got rewired that night and I'll never be the way I was before.