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I work a "9-5," which is basically remote meetings or email from 7-8:30 while I try to eat something and get my kids dressed, work through lunch so I can take "lunch" at the end of the day to be able to pick my kids up in time, go home and finish emails and hope to wrap up by dinner.

How people are working schedules like this is beyond me. I'm going insane as it is, and my job is "cushy." My doctor tells me I need to work less and create less stress in my life or I'm going to start bleeding out of my ears, and he looks more tired than I do. I feel like the only hour or two I get to relax is right before bed, which makes me stay up late desperately trying to hold onto that feeling of mild relaxation because I know, at best, I won't feel that way for another 24 hours.

My doctor says I need to follow up and crap for concerns, and I keep explaining to him that I have to come during work, which means 12min out if his day, but between driving, checking in, waiting in the waiting room, finally going back to the patient room, nurse check in, waiting, talking to the doctor, checking back in at the front desk, then driving back to work DURING THE WORK DAY is like two hours, and it also means if I do the follow up, labs, follow ups, specialist, labs suggested... I'll lose my job, which provides the insurance to afford those things in the fucking first place.

Everyone where I work is scared to quit for fear of working more hours on a worse schedule for less money. Everyone at the top seems to work remote at will and forces us into meetings about how to reduce burnout like they do, which is apparently by working less, having more schedule freedom, and then bragging about it by holding meetings about how to live more like they do, which, if we did, would get all of us fired within a month.