Under what does someone fall, who regularly forgets that sex exists, immune to flirting, needs external reminders/influence and effort to get in to the mood, cant wrap their head around attraction at all and completely hates the hand their dealt with?
I wouldn't say tha there is even sense if relief. Theres just disappointment due to lacking sense of accomplishment or any great/good feelings regarding it and after that brain automatically starts to pick apart why it actually wasn't an accomplishment and what i did wrong with it.
Thank you, yeah i have heard it before and over the years it has been rather instrumental in helping to create a some form of a higher layer of reasoning I guess.
Something that stops the negative spiraling getting out of hand, otherwise it can lead to depression again and that wasn't pleasant, wouldn't recommend.
Self hatred to a degree is still there, sometimes more, sometimes less, but there's an overarching voice of reason that can see it's irrational and not based in reality.
Yes it might become an issue further down the line, but that's a problem I'm going to deal with when it happens. If i can squeeze out a few more years or even decades, it has been worth it. Not that there are anymore risks to mental breakdowns. Those were usually caused by alcohol and I've significantly reduced that intake.
Yeah, and yes it was just stupid random sub dedicated to one of the most hated character of Warhammer 40k universe.
It did got banned oddly just before i started to get warnings and temp bans in rather rapid succession, for pretty much the same behavior iv had been already doing for years.
I assume they launched some new form of detection algorithm in the first half of this year.
Glad I don't play sports titels, but bloody hell. In addition to paying for a full game and getting bunch of MTXs and season passes. Now we need to suffer through ads as well.
Why the hell are we even paying for a game in the first place. I've seen free mobile games with a better approach.
If I'm paying i don't want to see any ads, how hard is that to get through to CEOs?
Not currently taking, just tested few years ago. Was somewhere between 90-100kg at the time.
Only concerta(long release) was available. Tried from 18mg to 72mg(max 54+18) and even went beyond max safe dosage in my own up to 160mg. Only thing it did was raise my heart rate eventually, make palms sweaty and significant hit on a wallet because max allowed dosage is 72mg while only 54mg is sold. So had to buy 2 bottles, each costing around 55-60€ with absolutely no government or insurance support. Most expensive M&M candies I've ever bought and last straw in trying to get therapy for ADHD.
No noticable mental benefits or any effects whatsoever.
HAHAHAHA, fuck no. I deserve all that the fucked up brain can conjure up and some more. But these are my demons, they are trapped inside that skull with me as much i am trapped with those. It's eternal conflict and those shall be kept in bay. Hypocritically i would never treat anyone else the way i do myself.
You can find any subject and i will rather easily find a way why i suck at it.
Yeah sure therapy could help, but i suck at struggling as well as those problems aren't severe enough or out of control to require professional help. There are countless number of people with much more disruptive problems who requore help much more than i do.
So in conclusion. Generally rather bad, self hatred runs deep,, but it's under control and i revel in it.
Fuck Erebus subreddit got banned for harassment and harm towards others. A completely made up character specifically designed by writers to be one of the most hated individual. No reference or links to anyone in real life.
That subreddit got banned just before i did.
So hating a fictional character is enough to trigger R1
And drinking caffeine too late in the day.
No caffeinated drinks should be consumed 6h up to half a day before going to bed.
Limiting caffeine only to morning has had significant impact to how deep my sleep is and over time, improved energy levels from better sleep have noticable reduced the need for coffee all together.
Though can you elaborate a little more on what does the decompressing point. Like how it's done?
I'm not anti-psychiatry. It seems to have been helpful for far too many people to be against it or ignore it all together.
It's just too much of a guesswork at the current price and time allocation it takes from finding a suitable therapist, to finding the problem and whatever it even can be fixed or just learning to live with it, without any actual fixing.Kinda just like a shot in the dark in rough direction of some sound.
Hopefully in the far future it becomes cheaper, more accurate and more accessible. Maybe a brain scan or machine algorithm based initial diagnosis.
Yeah over the years I've found tha people are different and of course there's nothing wrong in that. No ill will towards anyone on either end of the spectrum.
It's just always surprising to see someone with a complete opposite of my experiences as i tend to forget about it completely and only reminded of it by outside influence and even then it takes effort.
Others are saying grey or ace. Why demi then?