Oh i hate summmer from the bottom of my heart. Already just thebrightness hurts and makes it harder to see anything, but the main curse is the heat.
By the evening I'm just exhausted and head is stuffed. Of course the night isn't much better, it's not enough time to cool down and then sleep is disrupted and shallow.
So I'm perpetually sweating, tired, grumpy, slower and weaker.
Dark winter nights are the best, exactly that time when i cant see the sun at all, screw that fucker. No brightness, sleep is much deeper, always full of energy and it's just so easy to generate bodyheat that the cold becomes nearly irrelevant.
Same for pictures and videos. It looks almost like you, but it's not. The movements are slightly off and artificial, the expressions don't seem natural.
That seems more of a confusing rant than normal reply, so just ignore it.
Even though i have alexithymia, it's not completely disabled, though significantly hampered.With most things i do try to go through the list of positives and negatives, within the realms of reason. But from time to time i do make decisions that i don't know why i made those, of course i can observe those and after doing those repeatedly try to figure out some reason why I'm doing those.
So yeah making a decision generally does take time and analyzing, but from time to time i can do those instantly. Which i assume are done using intuition, but i cant be sure as i have memory issues as well so it's possible I'm using previous knowledge just not remembering it. Though technically isn't that what intuition is?
Automatically making a decision without conscious taught?
Is so then i use it actually a lot, most of my day to day activities are automated this way.
Maybe, it depends on many factors, like price, availability, side effects, beneficial effects. I am a huge supporter or transhumanism so for most things i will try some form of pill or medical solution and engineering innthe future as well as a part of trying to fix it before accepting it.
For ADHD, i have tried one med, but it had no effect on ADHD. It only raised heart rate in max+ dosages and it was rather expensive.I tried concerta, long release one. For others i would have had to get special premission every time and obviously the cost as well.ADHD and paperwork doesn't really go together well, so i determined that the cost of having ADHD isn't worth the effort and cost of meds.
Maybe in the future I'll try again when government adds some more ADHD meds into the list of supported meds and therapy gets cheaper or more accessible.
Thank you for feedback. Power button breaking is just one off issue rather than systematic issue and good way in bypassing it all together.
I'll most definitely consider that one when choosing the next phone.
I don't hate them. Hate is a rather strong emotion and would require something deliberate, malicious and targeted towards me specifically by someone to deserve the effort it takes hate them. I'm not even sure i am capable of hating someone. I can be frustrated by their actions or even angry in the moment, but that all dissipates.
Though yeah, overwhelming majority of the time it's easier when they're not around, because navigating the interactions with them can be like navigating a "minefield".
I never know how some will react and the reward for navigating is rather non-existent.
Presence of people is just annoying.
I was already doing something and being disturbed is always annoying and now i need to load up the profile of interacting with you in exchange of what ......?
Of course i try to analyze and pinpoint where or how those started and whatever those have some basis in reality from observers perspective, which helps to improve myself and makes beating those into submission easier and rarer.
Oh i hate summmer from the bottom of my heart. Already just thebrightness hurts and makes it harder to see anything, but the main curse is the heat. By the evening I'm just exhausted and head is stuffed. Of course the night isn't much better, it's not enough time to cool down and then sleep is disrupted and shallow.
So I'm perpetually sweating, tired, grumpy, slower and weaker.
Dark winter nights are the best, exactly that time when i cant see the sun at all, screw that fucker. No brightness, sleep is much deeper, always full of energy and it's just so easy to generate bodyheat that the cold becomes nearly irrelevant.