put my hand up for another job internally in my company, which i really fucking wanted and needed because staying in my current role was cratering me mentally
felt shit that sciatica seemed to be going backwards since getting off prescription meds, went to physio in a real sour mood and he could tell
was sore that night and the following day
that following day, i was having an interview for that internal job at 10am
had a breakdown at 9am because i was thinking about
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suicide and planning it out again
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ugly cried until 9:30am
got myself cleaned up, did the virtual interview at 10am
smashed it
had therapy that night, told my psych about everything and he literally said if i need to, I should quit my job because it's clouding and ruining everything else I like about life
feel better for the weekend, still kinda sore though
log on today, have sudden meeting request for 10:30am
at least our governments, federal and state, will still be able to function with their public service departments that haven't been gutted and replaced with big 4 consultants and contractors if our entire system collapses because every single corporation's reports and auditing are all complete bullshit...
yeah, my doctor has to regularly call up (medicare/the PBS/someone) to have my script generated "on authority" so that I can receive x amount of boxes of something at once (as my dose for that medication falls between two different mg levels of what is produced and boxed).
if this didn't happen, i would have to get two seperate scripts for different strengths of the same medication and be questioned on it every month, or would have to get one box of the lower strength medication, use the whole box and return to the pharmacy every week (and therefore got to the doctors for new repeats every 6 weeks instead of months).
now the second situation might seem unrealistic on the face of it, but imagine if that medication was a pain medication - maybe you're seeing a new-ish doctor and they're weary of prescribing it, or refuse to have it issued on authority to expand your script for whatever reason. it'd be a fucking nightmare
death to america
infinite yankoid genocide now