Horrible_Goblin @ Horrible_Goblin @lemmy.world

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Speaking from my own experiences.... (i'm diagnosed with autism and high-IQ)

People seem to read vulnerabilities they cant really place as general mental fucked upness. For example, I struggle when two people talk to me at the same time, or ask me several questions at once. Have a couple of these incidents happen and some people start treating me as if I'm missing a chromosome. I think when people are dealing with something thy know little about, some would rather fill the blanks with ignorance and stereotypes. You could invite them to learn more, but also... meh, their loss.

People who are familiar with autism, or being overloaded on info... they often automatically slow down, ask about my challenges, ect.

I've learned some tricks to demand respect though, you can't expect everyone to be sensible. I have an elaborate vocabulaire, and though I prefer to talk informal, sometimes talking slightly more formal than the person in front of you can keep them on their toes.

Another direction, I also like to deploy, is to just play the dumdum they think I am. It means less expectations, less bullshit. And honestly, nothing is more satisfying when halfway trough the year they find out you know the source material better than they do.

Another thing that has really worked for me is to surround myself with people who are eager to get to know me as an individual. In time this has also helped me grow the confidence to convince or even demand other people to understand how I work even if it originally isn't there priority.

Hope his helps

I will be your #1 personal progress cheerleader though!

Someone can tell me all the things that caught fire because their damaged ass just looked at it, and I will still be like; So you got out of bed AND made coffee? THATS FUCKING AMAZING

I have made mental health one of my obsession topics So I started working in mental health... I didn't see the problem with it.

I have to stop drinking coffee during work hours and have been working hard my entire career to not out-talk my clients -.- Im getting better at it though

Lucky me, I am 2 meters of giant flesh and tum tum. Smile, and I'm the BFG

Have a resting bitch face with a glint of implied violence and no card is needed for people to leave me alone :3

yooo, these messages mean a lot to me. This hasn't been the easiest week, and the.. well... everything of it means a lot. Ill try to get back to this with a more elaborate reply when I do have the space and mental capacity <3

I have a fairly functional form of autism, but I sometimes struggle finding balance in points of interest I get enthusiastic about, and nobody really matches my enthusiasm, even though they try. It often feels like rejection, but this post really puts it in perspective for me. I'm not always reasonable/flexible when I'm like that. Thanks for sharing.

(To give an example related to this post; I wouldn't assault someone for having a different opinion, but I could definitely debate them with a passion that's a little out of place and not as reasonable as I'd like to believe it is. "Building with concrete blocks? What is even wrong with you, where you never thought proper construction? What do you mean cheap building costs? People who want to build cheap buildings shouldn't be allowed to build anyway".

don't know about how big a factor autism actually is. I mean, sure might not pick up on some signals others would have.

But if I look at my own life, i think its mainly cravings... wanting to believe it.

Being single is quite a big topic in my life, and not one I'm happy about. I really miss the cuddles, the affection... just to play the game of dating even. So when that suddenly seems to present itself out of the blue, I might be way less critical of how i observe the situation than I otherwise might

Another factor, and this might be more auty related, is genuinly not being able to read what I mean or that person, or what they are expecting from me.

Hope this helps

as it goes with a lot of diagnosis.

This doesnt do it justice, but being socially different in a specific set of ways tend to create the same results as human social communication is just so specific... sure theres some local customs and habbits and such withing communities, but the thing we look for in a primal sense are all very specific. Not making those rule consistently is as confusing for them as it is for us. so suddenly their whole social playbook goes down the drain* and the only options are to either reject or to really engage and try to understand that different world, making all sorts of sacrifices in an attempt to try and keep up. (you know, like we do 24/7).

*NGL, at times I get a fair amount of satisfaction when this happens. Like; welcome to my world darling; do you not know what my face means? OH, that must be terrible. No, I'm not gonna tell unless you ask, and then i'm gonna act like you're weird for not understanding right away! OH, what was that? did i not respect your space? I'm sorry, just explain to me all the ways how your space needs to be respected and ill try to get it right on my third try.Oh, its hard to explain what you need from me right now? Well, figure it out you can't expect me to read your mind now can you. [all with a kind soft smile] (sorry, i'm a bit bitter today)

All in all what makes the struggle the most difficult for me is no cuddles, no physical affirmation. If I could just get my daily cuddles from someone, I'd be so much more balanced as a person. But now I just gotta act very casual around people while im actually just starving for some affection. (but I learned the hard way that when a 2m guy starts showing he craves for affection, people dodge him even more) Again, sorry for going so dark... not really having my day today... im in a venty mood

Yeah that expecting yourself to end up where you fit is something im really working on with therapy right now. Rationally I'm convinced its the way to go, its how my partents thought me to go about things. Sadly Ive been bullied a ton quite early in life, and because of that often assumed I was just not compatible with the world. Workwise I also had some bad luck... so its a lot of work building up the trust in myself and the people around me that its enough to just be myself... But I know I can do it, and I have the right support RN, so it just a matter of time.

A little rant, but ive never said this out loud now that I think off it ^^" yay progress

The first one is me when I'm anxious, the 2nd one is me when im fed up or tired.

When Im tired+anxious either one of two things could happen:

1. I just stop registering anything and do whatever the fuck I want.
2. I panic and start throwing people because i can't register the details I think are very important, and that is making me terrified of social repercussions because I am probably about to do something that is socially unacceptable, and even though its perfectly innocent in my head I will be ostracized and or assaulted for it.

The best is when I'm neither anxious nor tired, I just pick up what I pick up and what I don't... well people will just have to be more fucking clear about it don't they?

90% of my social anxieties are somehow related to this, as are 90% of my violent outbursts. Why can't people just fucking tell me what they want from me? Why am I not allowed to throw people?

exactly! its not so much that the algo is skewed against us (although...), but mostly the content it has available to it and our lizard brains in general that arn't helping. (or rather out desire to win the popularity contest and thus manipulate it in a way the algo is sensitive to). Because 90% of the 'pretty girl' videos wouldn't have these stereotypical clickbait dames in them if it didn't work in the first place

Gaston content at the very least.

First of all, let me just say I'm so glad this community exists. I fled 9gag only recently, and I'm still exploring lemmy as is, but I'd be happy to contribute. Cant really make any solid promises beyond Gaston (yet) as a lot in my life is changing and I'm not entirely sure where I'll end up.

But as this group has inspired me to dive more (back) into comics, I'll do what I can.

Oh please do, the world needs more Gaston always. If I get bored later this weekend I might try and dig up some as well.

Also for those of us that speak french/dutch; there's quite the market for affordable 2nd hand Gaston/Guust comics. (i see them consistently go for 7-10 euro). For english as well, but then you gotta look a bit harder and be a bit more patient.

edit: Sorry not sorry for fanboying :D

agree, I do have some other things in my feed, but I'd definitely say the algorithm has certain preferences.

Probably has to do with most of my interests being pretty nice compared to 'ooh pretty girl'. So when it compares what I click on it's easier to find high frequency recommendations based on other peoples likes. I know fuck all about the algo that makes feeds, but my guess is that's how it works.

IMO Franquin is the master of his genre, but I grew up with Gaston, so im probably a bit biased.

I remember having a day where I was down as a kid, and my dad taking me to bed and walking me trough a few pages of Gaston (one of the gags where hiis cat chases lebrac's eraser or something. Just going over every line in the drawings... how just those poses on itself are hilarious... I'll never forget that.

And since then I have only grown in my admiration for the magic pen of Franquin. In the image below Gaston made him little boots. The intention was good but his cat (and the rest of the office) had a harder time appreciating it.

Edit: last panel: "It's always your damn cat", "Hey, hooo, nono, he can no longer do any damage" [now that I've given him boots]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kid_Paddle

Looked it up, and apparently kid paddle started out as an editorial in Robbedoes (Spirou) magazine, and went from an 'a gag a day' thing to eventually its own comic book. So considering that progression, in combination with 1993 not really being webcomic-era, it all makes a lot of sense really.

I collected some of these as a kid. The humor and sense of timing is really on point. But I've always felt there where a lot of similar jokes recurring in a slightly different format. Combined with the decent but not superb art I always felt it didn't really warrant emptying my fairly empty piggy bank for. I always felt these gags would have worked better as a webcomic...

That being said, for everyone into fantasy/adventure games I can highly recommend picking up at least 1 of these. Kid Paddle/Gameover is really worth knowing about, and at times, a real riot.

Can we please rebrand 'X' as 'The website formerly known as twitter'?

Also, best post here in a while

Also, don't get my hopes up -.-

edit: so no prince fans here then ^^"

I always thought that was just a me problem...

it does have it's upsides though. Revenge is so much easier when people have their guard down.

On a more serious note; yeah I revoke "no worries" occasionally. try not to do it too lightly, but if I feel it's relevant... I'd rather cause some drama than have all this unspoken bitterness buildup