Everyone changes

I actually feel like I should actually hold on to the past, to remember the happy moments, the hope, the ability to enjoy things. To use this energy, the spirit, to reignite the "flame" of the engine that runs my brain, my "soul".

Fixing depression, for me, isn't forgetting the past, it's to continue the story that already has a good premise, continuing after being tired and temporarily letting the intern-ghostwriter take the pen for a while, but of course, the story is shittier, is not your story. So its to take back control, to find the energy, tell the intern (your brain's "autopilot") to go, and to write your own story.

Finish the character development, complete the story.

Your trauma, the backstory, your origin shouldn't be discarded, it is part of you, it should be part of your "character arc", your personal "evolution".

To me, losing memories is partially like death, never forget your past, use that to guide the future. Your past is what make you unique, it's what differentiate your from others. Accept the past, we have to in order to move on.

(Sorry I don't meant to sound like some weird philosopher writing some "flowery prose", I just don't like the idea of "forget your past")

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Is it? I still don't feel like I'm done mourning that man I used to be.
Sometimes I feel like I dont deserve to, I made mistakes and I keep fearing I'll repeat them :(
Why would I throw out the baby with the bathwater?
I actually feel like I should actually hold on to the past, to remember the happy moments, the hope, the ability to enjoy things. To use this energy, the spirit, to reignite the "flame" of the engine that runs my brain, my "soul".
Fixing depression, for me, isn't forgetting the past, it's to continue the story that already has a good premise, continuing after being tired and temporarily letting the intern-ghostwriter take the pen for a while, but of course, the story is shittier, is not your story. So its to take back control, to find the energy, tell the intern (your brain's "autopilot") to go, and to write your own story.
Finish the character development, complete the story.
Your trauma, the backstory, your origin shouldn't be discarded, it is part of you, it should be part of your "character arc", your personal "evolution".
To me, losing memories is partially like death, never forget your past, use that to guide the future. Your past is what make you unique, it's what differentiate your from others. Accept the past, we have to in order to move on.
(Sorry I don't meant to sound like some weird philosopher writing some "flowery prose", I just don't like the idea of "forget your past")