I deserve to hurt
I deserve to hurt
About 2 months ago I adopted a 3 year old cat from my local shelter. He’s super sweet but does bite a bit when playing but when it came to my other 2 cats, he’s was increasingly aggressive. I tried enrichment toys, calming products, and had him evaluated by a vet who prescribed medication, but unfortunately nothing helped. One of my older cats became so stressed she had to be hospitalized, i was at the point where I couldn't keep him safely. I’ve tried finding a new home myself but haven’t had success. Ive asked people at work, my friends, I posted on fb, nextdoor and other sites but had no success. I called the shelter that i got him from but they couldnt take him back. I emailed and called several rescues and other shelters but they either never got back to me or they were full and couldnt take him in. I didnt know what to do. The thing that broke was when he attacked my other cat and I had to separate them. She looked so scared and hid in a corner. It broke my heart. I left him out closed the door and I cried. Later I heard him meowing close by but I couldnt open the door. A neighbor had found him in my apartment and was knocking at different doors to see who's cat it was but I pretended I wasn't home. Im not sure if the neighbor still has him or took him somewhere or what. I love my other 2 cats and it broke my heart seeing them so scared and hurt. I didnt know what else to do. The guilt is eating me alive and I deserve all the pain I'm in
I'm really sorry to read this, I can't imagine how heartbreaking it is,
We were in a very similar situation, 2 small slightly older girls (5) and 1 rambunctious little boy (who quickly became a very big boy), we probably messed up thinking we would need to protect the kitten from the girls, ended up exactly the opposite. (Our final solution, and reason for writing this anecdote) We bought squirt guns and guarded the favorite victim like she was the president, it's taken months, but he's finally starting to get it through his skull that we don't need to play 24 hours a day. My wife has the patience of a saint, and fortunately has gotten to work from home a lot.
I hope you find peace, we can't rescue all of them.