I think it is part of making government agencies ineffective to prove their ideology that these agencies should be abolished and replaced with private companies (or not at all). That way, they can say come election time, "See? Government can't do these things well. We should eliminate these agencies." Many people will forget they are also the reason the agencies are shitty.
They have tried this with underfunding them in the past mostly. This is a much more direct approach.
At one point Trump literally suggested reducing reported Covid cases by just not testing. They genuinely think the important thing is not to talk about it.
If it makes you feel uncomfortable, sweep it under the rug and ignore it. Nothing is allowed to be bad or need fixing, nothing is allowed to change or be different, thats all scary.
What troubles me the most is that sounds like a very deeply abused person. It's a kind of person that has problems introspecting and managing their emotions. Is that what we're really up against? Is it all just mental illness?
The reason abusers and fascism and authoritarianism and evangelicals and the GOP all strongly overlap is because all those systems are centered around abuse and fear.
All those systems create the problem and then step in to be the hero that saves the day. They set a building on fire then rush in and save a few people to be a hero. And a LOT of people that aren't paying attention only see them as they emerge from the building helping people. They don't see that they started the fire in the first place, that multiple people died, that the building is now ruined. And that is now happening on a large scale on many levels to our country.