People can only take so much drama from others before they need to distance themselves for their own wellbeing. I feel no distress or fear. Two years of an abusive relationship followed by a high dose of psychedelics burned most of my self-preservation out a year ago. I have a little under a week left unless something changes. I'm quietly getting my affairs in order.
Well for whatever it is worth, I really hope you don't. I always figured if I got to that point I would pack up, break contact with everyone, leave everything behind and see how things are im Canada, or maybe bum it around Europe. I just figured if everything has gone to shit, nothing's stopping me from doing whatever I wanted
I'm about to run out of money and I don't have anywhere to go. I'm somewhere with a massive homeless population and not enough shelter. I have an autoimmune condition that will make me very sick and kill me painfully if I'm stuck out in the elements for too long. I'd rather kill myself than die slowly like that.