Bipolar Community Weekly Check-in for Jan 28-Feb 3: How Are You Doing?

Been unemployed and in tremendous pain for several months, lost my insurance, can't afford my meds, medical marijuana card expired so my insomnia and sleep paralysis are back, as are all my neurological ailments like waking up with no feeling in my legs and an intense crawling tingle in my spine. That all pales in comparison to the shitstorm in my brain. I just want to sleep but at this point it's worse than being sleep deprived. Honestly considering crawling out to the woods and feeding myself to the local bears