I'm glad for people like you, because I've spent a good chunk of my life desperately wishing to be in that club, and then another chunk being sad that I wouldn't be able to be. I was miserable and latched onto something that I believed would alleviate it, but I nowadays definitely think I'm happier not being in that club.
I've never really wanted to be in the private jet billionare club but I have always wanted to be in the "have a nice paid off house and enough money to safely start a small business" club. Sure, being a billionare would get me that but what would I do with the other 99.999% of the money?
I think I mostly just wanted to be in the "so rich I never have to think about money again. Growing up super poor left its marks on me and now even though I am relatively secure and comfortable, I still have a background anxiety about whether I'll have enough.
There's an instinct within me that screams that I shouldn't share resources with other people unless I'm sure I have more than enough for myself. If I indulged that instinct, that would mean that in a situation where there's enough for everyone, I'd feel most comfortable with 3 or more shares, because then even if I gave away one of my shares to someone else, I'd still have what I need, plus some buffer. There's a reason I work very hard to not indulge that instinct though, because I don't want to hoard at the expense of other people like me.
Like I say, it's just part of a wish of not having to think about money at all. I had some very rich friends in uni, and sometimes they'd shop in places where the clothes didn't have price tags, the kinds of places where if you had to ask, you couldn't afford it. I envied the fact that they didn't have to think about money more than I did the material luxuries they could afford