Heading off for 11 days interstate on Thursday and I'm overcome with panic that I won't finish this work project before I go. Every time I write another section I find more issues that need addressing. Fucking documentation, man... There's a hard limit to the number of hours I can spend on this anyway, and I think I've used 70% of it. So I'm going to have to just accept that it'll be incomplete and that's it. Trying not to go down the "you're mid 30s and still can't estimate your time properly, who would ever trust you in a job" route and relive all the failures and criticisms at this job - just gotta wear it and end this motherfucking chapter of my life already.
Also was very anxious that I have to do a whole bunch of chores before I leave, and I have stuff on Tuesday and Wednesday night... but I've made my packing list, vacuumed the house, now going to make the goddamn vegan kung pao chicken I've procrastinated for 6 days, and tomorrow I'm going to do all the laundry then pack.
The project was only given x number of hours. And given the company's struggling a bit financially these last couple months, plus my boss + admin's general disdain for me, I don't expect them to really add more hours
e: frankly I want it to all end too. I just also want to do a thorough job, which, when it comes to documentation of processes, can very much be how long is a piece of string.
Yeah it's been a long breakup haha... But because I haven't got anything else lined up yet, or indeed figured out if I'm still even staying on in Melbourne, it's dragged out