x-mas reminds me of I remember when I saw snow for the first time in my life when I was in NYC. Probably one of the most life changing moments of my life.

Snow was like 6-12 feet high or something.

I was 8 years old.

I never seen snow ever before in my life.

Guangzhou did not have snow, like ever, at least not when I lived there.

I remember leaving the (rented) house that day, well I'm reconstructing it from the neurons in my head, not sure if its still the same thing, but its the closest thing to a "video" I have.

I remember snow was just piling on the stairs in front of the house.

It was early, maybe the snow just stopped. Maybe it was still lightly snowing. I forgot.

Nobody shoveled the snow yet.

I went out and touched the snow.

Idk how to describe it. Can't convert neurons into words.

Like omg this this is new

I like walked in the snow.

The entire street is filled with snow, like not just the sidewalk, but where the cars drive.

It was a small street, not a main road. Not much traffic.

I walked around a bit, I think my mother was just behind me.

Not sure where dad was, he wasn't involved with my life that much my brain hardly registered him. Maybe he was still in the house.

I just lay in the snow, like its a bed.

I grab the snow.

Throw it in a random direction.

I didn't dare to throw it at my older brother, he'd beat me to death.

I think I kinda threw it at mom for funz lol

I remember like a bunch of white kids, the neighbors eventually also came outside to play around. For them, it was probably just a yearly thing, for me, its a new thing. It was more special to me.

Unfortunately, due to race and language barriers, they felt sort of like strangers, didn't wanna get near them because I didn't wanna cause trouble.

Then I think it got cold so like after less than 15 minutes, I went back inside and had breakfast. Then later went back outside, I think like by 11 or something (or maybe was late afternoon or the next day, don't remember), the city sent those truck things to remove the snow from the main road.

I remember I think I was happy.

Can I get a time machine? I wanna go back.

Adulthood is depressing.

What was your childhood like? Remember the snow? How did it feel? Wanna go back to childhood? Anyone just have an urge to make a time machine? Like a Travelers type time machine where you do conciousness transfer. I wanna hijack my younger self and live that life again.

Really, fuck all the gifts, I want a time machine for x-mas

(Time travel fans anyone? Anyone watched Travelers?)