I am desperate

Need a license, need a car, need to gtfo of this state or country. I have no friends here, no social life, I spend nearly every waking moment alone (either in my rented room or on the porch chainsmoking and occasionally getting drunk off my ass). I walk to work at a fucking gas station that is testing my patience. The times I do talk to friends, it's either playing video games online without much talk or I have to hear about all the cool and social shit one friend in particular experiences regularly. I live in fucking South Carolina in an expensive fucking area where rent is 2k+ a month. I make 14 an hour with incredibly varied hours. I want nothing more than my heart to stop and never have to see another day. I am midlife, but my entire life has been like this for the past 10 years (just in a new area since last year). I need guidance, help, or a rope. I cannot with this shit anymore. I am too tired and too alone to cope with shit. Been trying stoicism, but you can only say, "It is what it is," so many times before suicide is what it is.