My life is slowly collapsing in on itself, so that's cool.
Time for a paradigm shift?
Horrible.
My car got stolen last Monday, I’ve been driving a rental car my insurance hooked me up with. The rental got a flat tire yesterday so I’m paranoid about driving on the spare. I fucking hate cars and I’m pissed that I have to deal with this shit. I literally don’t even want to own a car but I have no choice because my job requires I own a car.
My uncle died of alcohol poisoning on Tuesday this week. They found him face down on the floor with a bottle of vodka in his hand. He’s the fourth person on my mom’s side I’m aware of who died this exact way.
My mom is dying of cancer and she’s been in and out of the hospital for months now. I don’t think I have a lot of time left with her.
Trump is president and he’s ruining the country for years to come, and I’m not even 30 yet. Some woman at work told me to have kids because the world needs more white babies. She literally said, “Do it for trump!” And I responded curtly, “The only thing I’m willing to do for Trump is put him out of his misery.” She got mad and threatened to report me to corporate, so I’m paranoid about that happening.
I have no money, no friends, no hobbies. The only person I talk to is my boyfriend and I feel incredibly guilty that I’m in his life because I have nothing good to say about anything and I’m always in a bad mood. I hate the world and I’m pissed off at everything. I’m so fucking sick of my life.
Holy shit, i'm so sorry. Fuck that woman, what a cultist. I hope things turn around for you.
The only person I talk to is my boyfriend and I feel incredibly guilty that I’m in his life because I have nothing good to say about anything and I’m always in a bad mood
Sometimes i feel the same way with friends. Either trauma-dump or complain about the state of the world. You always have this community if you want to vent :D
Doing great, thanks. How about you?
Doing alright, glad to hear you're doing great
Much appreciated and glad you're doing well too.
My partner left and in the process revealed they don't believe a non biological parent has any business continuing to raise the child after the romantic relationship is dissolved. I feel that my primary purpose and future are gone.
I'm sorry about this :( Theyre wrong, i dont know about the legality of it but i hope you get to see your child again.
I've been stuck in a depressive episode ever since the election kicked my mental health into decline again. I have been trying to dig myself out of it all week. Going to spend the weekend trying to clean up the depression mess from months of rotting in my house and then try to get on top of eating enough food again. I'm trying to accept my limitations even though I often feel bad about myself for being able to do less than other people do. I'm so jealous of people who can just exist without every tiny chore and responsibility being an enormous uphill struggle.
Sorry mate, i hope everything becomes better for you :(
Thank you for your kind words. I just started a new antidepressants, so I'm hopeful it'll help.
I want to be less angry, or in lieu of that, be able to manage that anger better. I'm mostly talking about social media here because in the real world I tend to not discuss politics or news. But I'm tired of the anger and then cringing and feeling like an idiot over something I said later when I light up a joint. As therapeutic as it is shitting on MAGAs and conservatives, I don't think it's healthy for me, considering how I feel about it later.
But here's the catch 22. I don't want to block all news and politics communities either because I'd like to stay informed. This place really needs multicommunities, so that you can categorise and only look at certain things at certain times. Beyond that, I just need to spend more time lurking in communities where I know everyone is just as angry as me and for the same reasons but where they don't speak like sailors. And maybe some of that level headedness will rub off on me.
All that said, I would also like to put a list of short term goals out there:
- Be less angry / hostile, be a nicer person
- Somehow come up with the funds to get an education in something
- Work on a Sonic fangame and maybe some free programming courses in my free time instead of just playing games and making lists
- Drop bad habits, pick up good habits
I want to be less angry, or in lieu of that, be able to manage that anger better. I'm mostly talking about social media here because in the real world I tend to not discuss politics or news.
I'm way too burnt out irl to be that angry anymore ;')
As therapeutic as it is shitting on MAGAs and conservatives, I don't think it's healthy for me, considering how I feel about it later.
Same. I like shitting on people with [particular] bad political takes (zionism, genocide backing, MAGA etc) but i hate getting into arguments with those people later. Especially since some of those takes are common, i'm just getting into a bar fight where i'm outnumbered lol.
This place really needs multicommunities
https://piefed.social/feeds :p
Be less angry / hostile, be a nicer person Good goal. I'm not the most angry or hostile person, but i avoid social interaction and i feel incredibly lonely (personal issues). I'd like to get better social skills and meet people.
Work on a Sonic fangame and maybe some free programming courses in my free time instead of just playing games and making lists I gotta start programming again... I haven't in months because i'm burnt out/can't focus on it. I hope i can start later.
Drop bad habits, pick up good habits Exactly, it's so hard ;-; Personally, i'd like to eat healthier and start cutting out unethical companies as much as possible. It aint much but it's something
I wish you the best with your goals :D
Welp, I already failed miserably at staying away from news and politics and not insinuating that certain people's brains aren't working properly lol. Starting to consider that maybe a second account is the answer. Then I block all everything except for things that make me smile and a better person on my main account. Then I only visit my other account when I'm in the mood for raging against the machine.
but i hate getting into arguments with those people later
For me it's not so much the arguing that gets to me. In fact I stopped feeling like it's a duty to respond to things that I don't want to respond to a while ago. So if someone wants to argue some MAGA shit, I'll probably just ignore. And if they're too hard to ignore, I'll probably just block.
What gets me is that it ends up making me a kinda bad person too. Feels good calling these people inbred idiots in the heat of the moment but really, I don't want to be the kind of person that calls others inbred idiots. It makes me feel like a piece of shit later. Over all I think there's probably better ways of expressing oneself than resorting to what is essentially calling people 'retards'. Just not with those exact words. I'd rather be part of the solution than part of the problem.
Useful to refer to but kind of an awkward workaround if you're not actually signed up on Piefed. I actually plan on signing up there some time, as an end user, they seem to constantly be working on great features that actual users can see and notice and I like that. Just waiting for some decent app choices for it.
but i avoid social interaction and i feel incredibly lonely (personal issues).
That's pretty much me. If you look at my social media usage, you would think that I'm a talkative, confrontational person but in the real world, I spend most of my life smiling and waving. And waiting for the conversation to be done so that I can get back home lol.
