You're viewing a single thread.
I had morphine at the hospital once. It was like a blanket woven with fibers made of love, calmness, and warmth. I would love to feel that again, but not a good idea. I can easily understand how someone can get addicted to opiates.
First time I took amphetamines, it felt like a buzzing I'd had in my head all the time was suddenly gone and I could actually enjoy the quiet for the first time.
It was so great that I swore never to take them again, cause I knew I'd want to take them every day and get addicted.10 years later I was diagnosed with ADHD. Turns out amphetamines just let me feel what it's like without symptoms for the first time.
Now I do take them daily (but at a much lower dosage).God, same.. it's like all that TV static in my brain was finally gone. Ten years later and I'm still so damn grateful for it.
My kids are convinced I have ADD, and are probably right, but having used amphetamines recreationally and enjoyed them too much I am afraid of the meds. I told the one still at home to hide them when she asked if I wanted to try the Adderall.
How is this going for you? I don't feel addictive in general, but speed? Oh my that is some good stuff.
Typically if you have ADHD then stimulants just make you feel "normal". Like, when I take my meds it just helps me stay on task and focus on what I want to focus on.
My non-ADHD friends who have taken the same meds recreationally have said they feel euphoric when they take them, which I do not get at all. For me it's just like... Strong coffee? (Then again, maybe lots of people are euphoric when they have their morning coffee?)
All this to say, get a real diagnosis, because there's a real chance that you don't have ADHD. Lots of other disorders can cause similar symptoms (e.g. chronic stress, generalized anxiety). Stimulants really fuck with your sleeping patterns which is absolutely terrible for yor health.
If I could hold a job without my meds I would probably stop taking them. I recently had to stop them temporarily due to another health issue and within 2 days my insomnia was gone and I was feeling healthier than I had in years. Yeah, it's been a lot harder to live my life, but I had forgotten how good a nice, deep sleep feels
Individual experiences can vary significantly. With sleeping pattern, for example: when I was on Vyvanse, I actually slept better than when I wasn't on medication; I fell asleep easier and felt more rested in the mornings. Strattera (a "non-stimulant"), on the other hand, had me waking hourly and having bizarre dreams.
I just use coffee and exercise and manage my work chaotically but it gets done - apparently my brief fashes of brilliance make up for the disregard for deadlines and processes, never doing things the same way for long, it doesn't work everywhere but at my current workplace (and one other job) they are happy with things changing all the time.
Honestly the way I was doing speed recreationally (the method) would have been euphoric for anyone; back then I could sleep while high on speed and that felt so good too!
My kids, they figure I have it because they do & when we were doing the screenings for them I was like, no fucking way is that a symptom, that's normal, that is also normal, nobody can focus on something boring for hours, no child can sit still, no teenager is organized, everyone is annoying sometimes that is nonsense - and they were just rolling their eyes at me. I still think half of it is just the world being messed up, not the kid. The modern world is not made for human brains.
I'm not addicted to the meds at all (recently went 2 months without, cause it would have been difficult to bring them to the country I was vacationing at)
They don't kick, after the first week I didn't feel any effect at all anymore, except for weaker ADHD symptoms.
Let me get a couple
Same. It felt like heaven and you just felt perfect all around. And that was just a dose of pain relief. I tried LSD last year which i enjoyed, so i‘m sort of open to try new drugs in a controlled environment. Opiated however, never. I was lucky to experience it in a controlled environment like the hospital to realise this drug is not for fun, it will make an addict of you.
Yep, dangerous stuff. I once had some minor surgery done. Afterwards I was sitting outside in a patient waiting room in a bed waiting for the drugs to stop working.
I brought my laptop and watched some episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm. It was hilarious and super comfortable.
I can never do that again, it's obviously super addictive. The medical professionals are right in being really strict when giving out opiates in my country.
Apparently people's responses in this situation are a good indication of their vulnerability to addiction in general.
Anecdotally it makes sense. I've had morphine multiple times (after accidents) and found it meh. I certainly wasn't asking for more. It so happens that I hardly ever drink and I've never done drugs of any kind or even wanted to*, despite having no moral objections to them and being around a ton of people who do them all.
*Okay, except psychedelics.
I think it varies by class of drugs (edit: and how they interact with your personality). I've used opiates and benzos before and enjoyed myself without feeling like I'd really care to try it again, but I definitely flirted with disaster/addiction with stimulants for a decade plus and alcohol for my entire adult life.
And it didn't take long; the first time I tried any stimulant, I chased it (and I've tried a lot of them).
Psychedelics, on the other hand, I love and in most people there is little to no danger for addiction. I'd go so far as to say that unless you have a family or personal history of schizophrenia, psychedelics are almost a must for understanding or coming to peace with life, death, and society.
A good psychedelic trip is literally life-changing, and even a bad trip is life-changing if you go into it with a decent trip sitter and the attitude that a bad trip is still just showing you yourself and the things you need to work on.
I never came close to describing morphine even half as well as you did. And it still doesn't do it justice.
Morphine is the best. And that's what makes it the worst.
If you told me I had a week to live, I’d do everything in my power to obtain clean heroin to find out what that’s about.
I think of heroin addiction as a yes or no question. I've tried it and it was nice (same with other opioid meds I have had to take) but some people, they try it and it's like they have never been whole before that point, or never been without pain - if it "fits" like that you will miss it so much. It was not that for me. I can't find the high in pot at all, either. I think it's a genetic difference, not a psychological one.
I did love the sleep you can get with morphine, that soft pillowy comfort. I don't want it all the time but it would be a great way to die, and it's great very occasionally, like once every five years.
I think it’s a genetic difference
I've read that alcoholics have a higher release of dopamine than non-alcoholics when they drink. I don't know how that's measured or how true that is, but it makes sense to me that something physiologically different is happening.
I've also had reduced effectiveness of party drugs when I was on meds to treat bi-polar.
Oh hey I was just about to comment that the one time I got morphine in the hospital it absolutely did not make me feel like this. It didn't feel like anything except "thank god the pain stopped, now I can rest." But it didn't make me feel good above my baseline and I was about to wonder if something was wrong with me? Now I just feel lucky.
wow, definitely tempting from your description